Live A Lie

Ever feel like you are living a lie? Sometimes life can get at us and make us feel as though we need to get everything out in the open. Hiding our feelings can be too difficult. Hense, living a lie.

I can’t seem to find out what I feel

Burned out dreams of others which I can steal

Take or leave this way I seem to you, it eats right through you

Ripped up parts of things I should do, I’ll run around and tell you screaming

Oh I live a lie, oh I live a lie, oh why even try

I’ve been leaving thoughts below

Still I feel I should know

Still don’t see much of me giving in

Much too strong to live outside these sins

Feeling like I’m taken lightly, think you see right through me

Words of those that still despise me, think it’s eating me you’re dreaming

Oh I live a lie, oh I live a lie, oh why even try

I’ve been leaving thoughts below

Still I feel I should know

When I seem to believe all that I’ve done wrong

You can take all that’s right I will still move on

Taken all I can give it seems that I don’t belong

Push me further from this go on

Oh I live a lie, oh I live a lie, oh why even try

I’ve been leaving thoughts below

Still I feel I should know - Default - Live A Lie!

Have you ever lived a lie?

Live A Normal Life With Me!

in the backyard playing on the swingset

dark green shoes off you can get your feet wet

mom and dad sat quiet in the sunroom

sundown, big moon, big sky.

now I just want to live a normal life

get a fast car and a pretty wife

we could have children of our own

settle down here until they’re grown

we could buy a house out on the beach

and just die there, out of reach

do you want to live

do you want to live

do you want to live a normal life with me!

Today In The New Year Resolutions

There are very few people who don’t seem to make the resolutions to improve themselves or their lives in the New Year. The problem is we find our goals are either so large that they are impossible to achieve or so minor that even a monkey could keep them. No longer!

I would like to suggest that we can make Today In The New Year Resolutions. Why not? It is easier to live one day at a time versus an entire year so wouldn’t it be easier to live goals the same way?

My Today In The New Year Resolution is to create a list of 10 potential money making ideas. It still compliments my New Year’s Resolution of creating a successful venture, but with some success along the way. If I don’t get to it today, there is still tomorrow. The only other alternative would be to sign up at My Goals and frankly I am too lazy for that.

What’s your Today In The New Year Resolution?

Ticket Delivery

The world is changing fast. Ticketmaster.ca is the largest distributor tickets for concert, sporting events and every other event you can think of. They have just released a new system that will allow you to print your tickets out if you don’t want them delivered. They will look something like this.

The only problem that I have with this system is the sentimental value of a printed ticket. No more stubs of Pearl Jam - 10! or U2 - Zooropa!, just plain old paper. What’s next? Special paper to print ticket stubs?

Cult Of Personality

Ran across this and thought it was interesting!!.

I started an online journal two and a half years ago, in the age before blogs were the hip thing. The journaling world was fairly insular. You had your grande dames and dudes, so to speak. The Diarist Awards were the pinnacle of journaldom.

And then came blogs and everything changed. It became easier to maintain a personal site using one of the blogging tools out there, so bit by bit, journals disappeared, though there are some die-hards out there. With the advent of blogging, I’ve noticed some really interesting changes. A sociologist could have a field day, and there probably is one out there somewhere taking notes with glee.

The biggest thing I notice in a blog is the comments section. Journals never had comments, so a journaler’s fan club! was his/her own private affair. But now, it’s all on display. And it really is a fan club in every sense of the word. Let an interloper come in voicing a different point of view from the club and watch the shit fly. It’s hysterical, really. The drawback to that is that newcomers may want to comment, but hesitate. I’ve not commented on several sites for just that reason.

The whole fan club! aspect of it astounds me. All you see of a blogger (unless you meet them and spend a fair amount of time with them in person) is what they decide to show you. The concept of turning bloggers into pseudo-celebrities is very interesting and very confusing. I’ve seen sites devoted to making bloggers famous. For what exactly? Writing an interesting entry or two, or posting a pretty picture or two makes us worthy of fame? There are talented people out there, to be sure. But does an interesting website mean you can write an entire book or sell your photographs for a lot of money or do an entire stand-up act? I’m not so sure. A few years ago there was a journaling scandal where people were promised bogus book deals for making their journals into books. Why would someone pay to see what’s presented here for free. Why would my fucked up relationship with my ex-boyfriend, told in achingly pathetic detail, make me a literary success?

It’s seductive, though, when people leave comment after comment about how brilliant you are!!how witty you are!!how great of a person you are. You begin to believe the hype.

Then there’s the disclaimer seen in so many comments sections. It says something like: This is my site so play nice.! And that’s very true. But if we put our lives online like this, and leave our comments section open, aren’t we in fact inviting discussion of all types? Or do we just want the adulation?

I’ve also seen bloggers who are outraged when someone offers them advice in the comments. Again, if we write about personal things online, what do we really expect? If you don’t want unsolicited advice, don’t put your personal shit out there. It’s simple really. Better yet, turn your comments off.

The voyeur in me loves blogging because of the comments sections. They can be more interesting than the blogs themselves. They can also detract from the site. A friend of mine, who shall remain linkless here, turned off her comments about two months ago. I’ve remarked to her several times that her work has never been better. She said: I took my site back.! Telling words, I think.

I’ve also noticed lately a lot of discussion about the supposed blogging A-List! and who is or isn’t a member. I guess if you link to a lot of people and they link back to you and you get a lot of hits, you’re on this A-list. My question is this: With thousands and thousands of blogs on the Internet now, how can there be an A-List? Look, we’re all hit whores. Let’s be honest about it. But if you join a web ring or some sort of ranking site like photoblogs.org, you’re going to get hits, no matter where you’re ranked. That’s the bottom line. There’s plenty of audience out there to go around without having to name drop and without having to create an A-list.

But you can’t blame bloggers. The very nature of blogging, as even stated on the Bloggie Awards page, is to link to other sites. It creates a situation where there are A-lists and Z-lists, and it all feeds into our basic human need to be loved and adored, whether it’s real or perceived. And we’re nothing but big animals with big brains. Animals run in packs. It’s high school all over again.

And that’s the core of what interests me about blogs. I ask myself what needs I’m trying to fill by being here. I think we all have the same basic reasons, if we are really honest with ourselves. We want attention. If we didn’t, we’d write in paper journals and keep photo scrapbooks. We want recognition for our work, and for ourselves as people. We want people to tell us that we’re talented, or funny, or bright, or good writers, or even that we’re pretty or sexy. We want community with like-minded people. We want love.

On the Internet, 15 minutes of fame can be like 7 dog years, and if we’re really honest, we all want our share. The key is to keep it in perspective and to remember that (for the most part) once the computer is turned off, so are we.

There is so much truth in this post. I think that I might post it on my other site. People would find this usefull!

Chruchill Greats!!

History will be kind to me, for I intend to write it.! - Winston Churchill

We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.! - Winston Churchill

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